ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!

WELL IT'S MY 25TH BIRTHDAY TODAY AND BOY DO I FEEL OLD. UGH IT'S ON ONLY 25 BUT BY GOLLY I FEEL IT.BUT ALL IN ALL IM GOOD, I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE MADE IT THE 25 YEARS I DID N TO HAVE THE BEAUTIFUL FAMILY I HAVE. MY CHILDREN IF NOONE ELSE MAKES ME HAPPY, MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE. I HAD FRIENDS, THAT I THOUGHT WERE FRIENDS BUT AFTER 25 YEARS OF NONSENSE AND HIGHSCHOOL STUFF IM OVER THAT. IM DONE WITH THE LITTLE KID HE SAID SHE SAID DRAMA. IM 25, 25 YEARS OLD THATS A GOOD TIME TO REALLY START TO BE GROWN DONT YOU THINK. I DO. IM GOING TO TAKE UP PHOTOGRAPHY, AND PAINTING , I NEED TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE THATS PRODUCTIVE, I NEED AN OUTLET. IM A STAY AT HOME MOMMY AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT BUT I DONT WANT THAT TO BE MY ONLY DEFINITION WHEN YOU THINK OF ME. ID LOVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL IN FACT AS OF THIS WEEK I WILL START WORKING ON MY GED AT HOME UNTIL I CAN GET INTO CLASSES IN THE FALL WITH NAVARRO, THANK YOU BABE FOR MOTIVATING ME, IF YOU CAN DO IT SO CAN I. THEN HOPEFULLY ICAN TAKE SOME ONLINE CLASSES,THAT WOULD BE AWESOME AND WHAT I ASPIRE FOR. LIFE IS GOOD, BUT I WANT BETTER AND I KNOW IN MY HEART I FEEL THAT THE LORD IS CALLING ME IN A DIRECTION TO DOSOME THINGS AND MAKE SOME CHANGES IN MY LIFE. TO START LIVING BETTER, AND BEING MORE ACTIVE AND PRODUCTIVE IN CHURCH, TO PUT MY HEART IN A FEWMORE THINGS INSTEAD OF SITTING ON THE SIDELINES AND WATCHING I NEED TO JUMP IN AND GET IN THE GAME. I COMPLAIN ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS BUT PUT MYSELF IN SITUATIONS THAT LEAVE ME OPEN FOR THE NEGATIVES TO HAPPEN AND HONESTLY IM SMARTER THAN THAT. I KNOW THAT AND IM GOING TOCHANGE THAT , IF ANYONE CAN IT WOULD BE ME AND ONLY ME. I CN BE THE ONLY ONE TO MAKE CHANGE I CAN BE THE ONLY ONE TO MAKE MY LIFE WHAT I WANT IT TO BE I CAN BE THE ONLY ONE TO "FIX" ME AND MAKE IT AND ME WHAT I WANT AND GOOD GOLLY I WILL. I LOVE YOU ALL...

random rambling of a mother

Thoughts of the day..any? I dont know, my day has been fairly easy going so far. Elijah woke up this morning sounding kinda crumby so i took him to the doctor.We got there and were the only people there for a while, they called us back and weighed Elijah. He is now just 16 pounds hes such a tiny little baby but hes grown in length so i guess he might just be lanky. Anyways the ma is in takes us back into the room and starts to listen to Elijahs lungs, and my goofy son decides hes going to start fake coughing!!! Of all the things he could do hes fake coughing lol and its hilarious because the nurse looks at me like im some kind of overprotective mother who brings my baby for every sneeze. I swear to you he had a nasty mucusy cough this morning lol. Oh my. :)


Later we went to subway and had us a fantabolous lunch, i love subway! I started watching terminator salvation and might i add its a pretty awesome movie. My thoughts on anything else today?? Hmmm well im trying to figure out which shots if any should be given if at all. Ive been doing some research that suggests that its not all neccessary not all are needed as often,but i need to research some more. I guess ill be doing that later on this afternoon and this week so i can give my dr. an answer when the appointment comes up.


enjoying my afternoon today and going to watch some tv. thats all folks!!

HAPPY FATHERS DAY !!

Happy Fathers Day!!! Well im glad to say i had a wonderful fathers day with my loving significent other, my daddy, and brothers. It was really fun today ,we grilled we swam(well they did ) and we all had a good time. I love good times with family its so much fun being together with everyone. I have to give a shout out to my daddy for being the best daddy besides sope that i know. Hes always been there for me and never left my side. I love my daddy. Also shout out to sope who came along after the stupid guy i was with before left my beautiful girls and i broken and he picked up the pieces and made us whole again, I love you sope! I do and i will always love you happy fathers day love...

Wow! Today

has been crazy,heck this last week has been super crazy. I found out this past sunday,that my brother and his girlfriend are actually having a baby now. Shes pregnant! He is 20 years old and she's 19. not too young, but young enough for me to be a little concerned. Actually i was really concerned, im being honest as this is what this blog is for. Theyre relationship has been rocky as everyones is but thats not it, i went through having my first baby at 17 and i know how incredibly hard it is. I did not graduate becuase i was pregnant and on my own. However that is not the case here, he has graduated highschool and is in college,i just hope he can continue. Its going to be hard but i have no doubt that my brother can do it if he really puts his mind to it and that he will do his best to be an awesome dad. I love my brother deeply, he has been my closest sibling and i have always looked out for him and continue to no matter how old he gets, or what he wil go through.

So im getting excited now, i had a lot of trouble wrapping my head around the idea at first and at times i still feel a sense of...sadness at the thought of him having to change his dreams for a while,but then i get over it. I m excited to be an aunt for the first time, i wanted a niece or nephew soon just wasnt ready i guess. lol Becareful what you wish for right!! Ive already decided to spoil this baby like my own the good part...i can give this one back. lol Its a different sense of excitement from when your having your own baby to when you become an aunt, i thought it would take me a little while to come around to it but nope its changed rather quickly. He just called me becuase they had there first doctors appointment today and he just called and "WATCH OUT WORLD..BABY GARCIA IS SET TO ARRIVE ON FEBRUARY 10,2011!!!"

Wish i had known..

Well i spent the better part of last night looking up online and reading a post from a blog on leaving your sons intact. i wish i had found this a lot sooner,it makes me regret my decision to circumcise,my son as i did do it. its weighed heavily on my heart since then, i was not present when they did it as i would have probably changed my mind then. now a days at least in my family and area its the norm to circ, its just a given you have a boy you get them circd. i wish i had researched it more before just agreeing to it. i wish i had been brave enough to say can i have more information, i was not an outspoken person about my style of parenting beforhand, and now, well you cant shut me up. i breasfeed on demand, i co-sleep, i am all for intact boys, i wear my baby and believe firmly in not letting nanies,children cry it out. this is me who i am and how i want to parent, i just wish i had been more informed anout the circ. noone gave me any information about leaving him intact, about the benefits of it and the cons(if any). point is i guess people stay informed do your research and be firm. for your babies...